Tuesday, October 17, 2017

Monday, October 09, 2017

I do have some excellent earrings for Thursday night. This is a better colour of the long dress btw...

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Which dress for a black tie do on Thursday?

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And then there were three?

I know I don't write in here very often. But it is still my external memory drive, where I come back to look back on the past and what happened to me.

So this is an exciting post to share with this space. And yes, I have discussed this with Tom.

We're expecting a baby in March 2018.

I'm currently a day shy of 18 weeks pregnant, which means I'm roughly half way there. We've not felt the baby kick yet, but heartbeat was all present and correct at my last midwives appointment. There was a very squiggly baby in there at the 16 week scan who most emphatically did not like being prodded by the ultrasound wand through my flab, and kept rolling away to curl up into it's comfy shape. Sounds like me in the mornings when I don't want to get up.

We've had a tough time getting to this point. My PCOS and my lack of a fallopian tube from my ectopic pregancy in 2010 led to me needing Clomid to ovulate. I have had some invasive tests that were more painful than my ovarian cyst. I have felt the sadness and anger of watching friends and family conceive around me, and felt the utter failure of not being able to perform this basic bodily task. It's certainly taught me not to ask questions about people's reproductive status, and to be mindful of how I talk about this pregnancy. We're out of the official woods, but it doesn't mean things still can't go wrong.

So here we are. I'm past my intermittent all day nausea and relentless tiredness, and am smack bang in the middle of the second trimester feeling much perkier. Only dealing with a bit of backache from the relaxin hormone upsetting my already dodgy back, and a few digestive issues.

I doubt I'll write often about the pregnancy or the baby once it's here, mainly to respect the baby's future privacy, but there you go.

One of the things I am of course very excited about is knitting for my own baby after years of knitting for others. And taking it to Efteling with my family :o)

Friday, July 14, 2017

Food for thought

"It is a mutual submission of wills to love another person well, not in the way that we want to love, but in the way that they best receive love. - Emily Jamieson"

Tuesday, May 23, 2017

A proper post

So I've not written a proper post in a long time.

There's been a lot of crap going on with my health over the last couple of years. Nothing life threatening, just chronic enough to make it irritating. And it's taking over my life, so that I don't really think about anything else.

It makes it quite hard to enjoy anything else.

So in the spirit of focusing on everything but the elephant in the room, here are some updates for you. Because I need to focus on the good and the progress that has been made, to remind me that everything hasn't stopped and there are still things going on. It's OK, I don't want sympathy, which is why I'm not posting publicly about what's going on. It's private, it's crap, and I need to get a grip.

We're working on the conservatory at the moment. Two years in, I'm not going to lie, I'm a bit bored with DIY now and I will do anything to get out of it. We've had the roof replaced with one of those lightweight pressed steel tile and insulation jobbies, and the inside plastered. It does look a lot more like a room now. The floor will remain unfinished until we decide on the flooring for the kitchen. We have an idea of what we want for the kitchen now, and need to go and talk to some suppliers again to get that underway. The downstairs loo has been skimmed, and we're part way though decorating that as well. So really it's only the kitchen and the dining room to do. Slow progress. I will probably convince Tom to pay for the decorators for the dining room when we get to it. I can't face getting all painty.

Continues with less travelling, so less photos of lovely places.

We've been busy doing to the rounds of visiting friends and family, and travelling where we can on holiday. So we've not been home much to go to church on Sunday, but have been trying to go to a home group on Wednesdays. I don't miss church on Sundays, as I don't really feel like I get anything from it or contribute anything useful to it. I do miss singing. I had a fascinating chat with a colleague about worship production values, and I think perhaps that's what I'm missing, the care and attention being put into a formal act of worship.

We've just had a fantastic trip to the USA to see Sandy, who works there now. We visited Cape Cod, Boston and Providence. I was struck by how much space there is, how big everything is, and how beautiful Cape Cod is. I loved the enormous beaches we had to ourselves because their tourist season hadn't quite started, and the wooden houses in the woods, all white wood trim and painted shingles and spring wreaths on front doors. It was wonderful seeing Sandy and hanging out. We do miss him.

Here's some pictures. And that will do for now.