Monday, February 28, 2011

Also Awesome

A floral wreath I created for a funeral at church for a very lovely brightly coloured lady, my darling valentines flowers from Tom, and my awesome pattern of red and pink shoes in the living room.

Also Awesome

A floral wreath I created for a funeral at church for a very lovely brightly coloured lady, my darling valentines flowers from Tom, and my awesome pattern of red and pink shoes in the living room.

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New lovely things

Teeny tiny daffodils growing from those I gave Tom for Valentines day last year, the most perfect Southampton sunset, and the people I taught to knit on sharpened paintbrushes at the SCM conference knitting in evening prayer.

New lovely things

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Teeny tiny daffodils growing from those I gave Tom for Valentines day last year, the most perfect Southampton sunset, and the people I taught to knit on sharpened paintbrushes at the SCM conference knitting in evening prayer.

Thursday, February 24, 2011

The Happiest Employee on Earth | The High Calling

There’s a bright yellow band of construction tape blocking the administrative entrance to my company’s main building. Apparently killer icicles are hanging from the roof line forty feet above, threatening to bludgeon unassuming office workers arriving to work.

That wouldn’t be pretty.

In any case, I had to go around and use the main entrance to the manufacturing plant. It was about 4 o'clock, and most of the first shift had already left for the day. A few workers were still milling around outside the plant entrance, chatting on their cell phones, leaning against the wall, waiting around for their rides to show up.

The gray sky had started to snow again, this time a soft, light sprinkling of giant sugar crystals. The news called it a "dusting," which made it sound pretty and mythical, like we were in the land of faeries and elves rather than the gritty tableau of exhausted hourlies coming off their eight hour shift.

We all kept glancing up to the heavens, blinking at the thought of more snow tonight.

As I approached the lobby entrance, I noticed someone right smack in the middle of the entryway making odd, jagged movements with his body.

It was an employee, dancing. Right there in the middle of the walkway, right in front of all those parked cars and passerby's.

It was Donny.

Donny has a mild form of Down Syndrome. His job is doing routine maintenance stuff around the plant: painting, replacing things, odd jobs and the like. He’s good at it - very conscientious, dependable, friendly, and, most of all, he’s happy.

Over the years Donny has become a fixture at our company. He lives at home with his mom and dad, and usually rides his bike to work. But today it was snowing, again, so I guess his bike couldn’t make it through the snow and ice, and, like the other stragglers, he was waiting for his ride home.

But instead of just leaning against the wall with a blank stare, he decided he should start dancing. His feet jiggered this way and that as he hopped up and down, bouncing slowly to the rhythm in his head.

Two Hispanic guys in a white pick up truck pulled up next to him and rolled down the windows. Salsa music was playing on their radio, and they turned it up loud. Then they just sat there, watching Donny dance to their instant soundtrack.

"I’m doing a snow dance!" Donny shouted to no one in particular, his arms flailing every which way and his face pointed straight up to the sky. His eyes were shut tight and a brilliant smile crossed his face.

I walked past him and smiled, too, but he didn’t see me. He was too busy dancing, caught up in the movement of his body, feeling the sensation of the cold flakes falling onto his eyes, the raw beauty of the chill on his face.

I reached for the main entrance doorway, and I heard him shout again, "I’m doing a snow dance!"

I turned to get one more glimpse of him dancing, unrestrained and uninhibited, and felt a pang of – something. What was it? Sadness? Compassion? Jealousy? The thought crossed my mind, surely, he must know something that I don’t.

He is the happiest employee I’ve ever seen.

I can hardly make it through a single day without worrying what someone thinks about me. And I am usually so consumed with my petty worries and projects and meetings that I barely even notice the sky. Except to complain about it.

What must it be like to be so uninhibited, to be so happy just because it’s snowing and you finished up another good day of work? Walking down the hall to the conference room, I realized I already had the answer. You would laugh. You would dance. You would turn your face to the sky with a brilliant smile.

 Photo by smithmakaay. Used by permission, via Flickr. Post by Bradley J. Moore.

This is a beautiful article

Friday, February 11, 2011

Drumming as Prayer

Whilst at the SCM conference this weekend just gone by I took part in a drumming workshop. Using West African drums, Kara, the workshop leading lead us through a new way of praying.

We each had a copy of a psalm, (86 I think) and whilst reading through it silence, meditatively, we had to look for words or phrases that leapt out at us, and ponder those words. Very similar to Lectio Divina if you've ever tried that.

Then we had to drum out that phrase, either the rhythm of the words, or sounds representing those words, or sounds on how the words made us feel.

My words were "For To You I Cry" and as the session word on I drummed the rhythm, the shape, the sound of crying. Sometimes I just just drummed a cry.

All the words and sounds of the group looped together. Sometimes there was a big sound, all in sync, and other times chaos and no rhythm. I sat quietly for a time and listened to the sound. And naturally, gently it came a close all together. When our prayer was done.

I found praying with my whole body like this, going over and over my cry to God as my hands were busy, my feet busy, my easrs busy so soothing so easy The active me was occupied, and the rest of me could focus on God. It was grand to hear my prayer subsumed into the large prayer of the group.

This became a theme of the weekend, looking for ways to pray with the all, to keep focused on God. I taught some to knit, ans some made knots and plaits of wool whilst praying. Some suggested praying with clay or plasticine in ones hands.

I've been diving in and out of prayer since coming home. Looking for the time for the subversive silence all through the day.

Drumming as Prayer

Whilst at the SCM conference this weekend just gone by I took part in a drumming workshop. Using West African drums, Kara, the workshop leading lead us through a new way of praying.

We each had a copy of a psalm, (86 I think) and whilst reading through it silence, meditatively, we had to look for words or phrases that leapt out at us, and ponder those words. Very similar to Lectio Divina if you've ever tried that.

Then we had to drum out that phrase, either the rhythm of the words, or sounds representing those words, or sounds on how the words made us feel.

My words were "For To You I Cry" and as the session word on I drummed the rhythm, the shape, the sound of crying. Sometimes I just just drummed a cry.

All the words and sounds of the group looped together. Sometimes there was a big sound, all in sync, and other times chaos and no rhythm. I sat quietly for a time and listened to the sound. And naturally, gently it came a close all together. When our prayer was done.

I found praying with my whole body like this, going over and over my cry to God as my hands were busy, my feet busy, my easrs busy so soothing so easy The active me was occupied, and the rest of me could focus on God. It was grand to hear my prayer subsumed into the large prayer of the group.

This became a theme of the weekend, looking for ways to pray with the all, to keep focused on God. I taught some to knit, ans some made knots and plaits of wool whilst praying. Some suggested praying with clay or plasticine in ones hands.

I've been diving in and out of prayer since coming home. Looking for the time for the subversive silence all through the day.

Wednesday, February 09, 2011

My 5 Daily Essentials

1. That first cup of tea at work. It puts the day to rights.

2. A moment of quiet where I can knit, read or pray.

3. A moment to read all the inspiring blogs I follow, especially the
pretty flower ones.

4. Some time spent outside.

5. Most importantly, a hug and a kiss from my husband.

I know, it's sickening, but my world feels wrong if I don't at least
kiss him goodnight.

As tagged by The Fabulous Miss Pickering
http://www.misspickering.blogspot.com/

My 5 Daily Essentials

1. That first cup of tea at work. It puts the day to rights.

2. A moment of quiet where I can knit, read or pray.

3. A moment to read all the inspiring blogs I follow, especially the
pretty flower ones.

4. Some time spent outside.

5. Most importantly, a hug and a kiss from my husband.

I know, it's sickening, but my world feels wrong if I don't at least
kiss him goodnight.

As tagged by The Fabulous Miss Pickering
http://www.misspickering.blogspot.com/

Tuesday, February 01, 2011

Dancing and the way it makes my heart ache.

Lying on the floor tonight in a cool dance studio, half lit by
daylight florescent tubes, I felt my back ache and my heart ache along
with it. We were supposed to the cooling down, but the smell of sweat
and feet and lycra and jersey, and the soft but hard feeling of a
sprung floor took me back into my past. I has 15, 16, 17, 18, dancing
6 nights a week, able to dance phrases of Cunningham, Alston,
Anderson. Meeting Christopher Bruce in the dance studio at school on
the off chance, learning about contact improvisation and how to lift
people, and how to dance to silence.

My poor young but old bones. My joints are tight and I can't feel free
when I move. Leaden with 5 years of not enough dance, using the wrong
muscles in the gym, not the ones for dancing. But when I stop worrying
about all the bright young things in the class watching me as my non
existent movement memory fails me and I dance in the wrong direction,
I feel alive. I feel my soul stir and my heart soar.

This is always who I was. Someone who used my whole body to express
myself. I breathe in and I breathe out, feeling my thorax swell and
feel my centre in this place. Here I am talking to God in this place.
In this sweaty, painful now.

Dancing and the way it makes my heart ache.

Lying on the floor tonight in a cool dance studio, half lit by
daylight florescent tubes, I felt my back ache and my heart ache along
with it. We were supposed to the cooling down, but the smell of sweat
and feet and lycra and jersey, and the soft but hard feeling of a
sprung floor took me back into my past. I has 15, 16, 17, 18, dancing
6 nights a week, able to dance phrases of Cunningham, Alston,
Anderson. Meeting Christopher Bruce in the dance studio at school on
the off chance, learning about contact improvisation and how to lift
people, and how to dance to silence.

My poor young but old bones. My joints are tight and I can't feel free
when I move. Leaden with 5 years of not enough dance, using the wrong
muscles in the gym, not the ones for dancing. But when I stop worrying
about all the bright young things in the class watching me as my non
existent movement memory fails me and I dance in the wrong direction,
I feel alive. I feel my soul stir and my heart soar.

This is always who I was. Someone who used my whole body to express
myself. I breathe in and I breathe out, feeling my thorax swell and
feel my centre in this place. Here I am talking to God in this place.
In this sweaty, painful now.