At two weeks:
Sheer elation after delivering you, couldn't believe that I'd done it vaginally and that you were actually here after being so worried.
Finding out you were a girl and being relieved as we hadn't had any boy names!
Everything coming back to me about feeding and sleeping and changing nappies.
Getting to come home very quickly because of Covid and your granny and grandpa being here to welcome you.
Your big sister Lydia being so excited to meet you, wanting to hold you right away, saying " I love you, you're so little, you're so cute" , wanting to try and carry you, change your nappies, helping me try and feed you, so proud of being a big sister.
Your little turtle head and neck, trying to lift your own head, so strong, looking out at us through one half open eye
Your grunts and squeaks, the sheep like maa noise when you cry.
Lydia calling you "Pheebs" or "Pheeb"
Moving slowly like a sloth in treacle
First smile 4 September
At 5 weeks:
Holding on to my clothes when you feed.
Batting my breasts between your fists to make it the right shape to feed from
Saying "a goo" when smiling
Slept through 15 sept
All calm and wide eyed at first swimming lesson, happily going under the water
Talking back to us and smiling, with lots of goos
8 weeks, lots if chats whikst you sit in your bouncy chair. Grinning for Lydia when she comes to entertain you by leaning over and tickling you with her curls
9 weeks recognising Lydia and bring very happy to see her.
Story time with daddy, at bedtime, how good he is with you
13 weeks, 'knitting' your blanket or muslin.
First laugh playing shaky hands with mummy Tuesday 9 Nov
When I pick you up at night for the dream feed, you are lying with your hands by your ears, keeping them there whilst I pick you up.
Grandpa Bear, my Dad, spending ages sitting on the floor talking to you whilst you're on your playmat, trying to get you to smile.
Giving you your morning kisses, lots of kisses on each cheek, or nomming your cheeks, making you smile and blissfully close your eyes and sometimes even laugh
Watching daddy read you a story, you trying to turn the pages, all bundled up cosy in your sleeping bag
Lying on the floor together with our legs in the air playing whilst you burble and smile
26 Dec, rolled onto side for first time
Positively vibrating with excitement when people are playing with you
Your huge wide mouthed gummy smiles of joy
Reaching out to touch my face. Stopping feeding to grin up and me and purr with happiness.
Just about sitting unaided
12 Jan rolled over back to front
Making cooing noises like a pigeon
Sitting up to the kitchen table in the highchair with a pile of toys in front of you, chewing your narwhal vigorously and reaching for the next toy as you knock one on the floor, whilst watching all the action in the kitchen excitedly
Beaming up at me whilst strapped on my front in the carrier, cooing and laughing at the trees
Loving Friday night disco night, laughing and singing whilst I dance you around on my hip, watching the coloured lights on the ceiling
Sitting in your highchair at Wickens Wednesday dinner waving your arms as you babble 'mamamamama' almost as if your were conducting the dinner party conversation
Holding the tail of the plait in my hair as you feed.
Making happy faces at me in the dark whilst feeding when you should be asleep
Charming waiters and shop assistants by being so happy
Huge belly laughs for Lydia
Looking just like glitter granny
Making very confused faces when eating for the first time
Holding your own hands like a great thinker
Sitting up strongly from 6 months onwards
7 months and flapping your arms and bouncing on your bottom trying to move to get to things, launching yourself forward and rocking back and forth, one single crawl forward then flop
Growling with joy like a little bear, shouting with joy when you see other babies or people talk to you, with your huge gummy smile
Tipping your head on one side when playing like you're acting coy, copying if other people do it
Protesting loudly if you're sat up to a table and other people are eating but there's no food for you
Very slowly signing milk sporadically at 7 months
Making concerned 'mumumum' sounds if you're hungry or wet, or if we leave the roo
7.5 months starting to clap hands
Happy to sit on the floor bashing toy pans together, making a big noise as I do house work around you
Leaning out of a cuddle stretching out arms if you want to go to someone n
8 months, crawling backwards and getting stuck under the so
The utter intimacy of you sleeping on me after you finish your bedtime feed, your little hand resting on my chest, the rise and fall of your breath, the huff when you sigh in your slee
Starting to cuddle us back.