Tuesday, August 15, 2006

What I am to you is not real...

Oh sweet heavens I love Damien Rice. He makes me cry. In a very very very painful way. Yet its good and horrible.

Ugh. I'm in a funk. I need to do work and paint and things but I really feel like watching trashy telly. Nothing seems to make me feel much better. I shouldn't be dependant on people for happiness. It just sucks a bit when you spend all day trying to get hold of one friend, one person to talk to and be met by blank walls. Enough bitching Alex. Breathe! I'm also going on a real health drive because I have put on a lot of weight and despite what darlings say to me about my looks, I am not happy. I know I can look better.

So far this health drive involves
  • ignoring chocolate, crisps and cake unless its the wrong time of the month,
  • a calorie controlled diet of at least 1000 calories so my metabolism doesn't die,
  • Coffee twice a day to boost the metabolism before my exercise.
  • 150 situps/crunches in various guises a day and 30 pathetic girly pressups a day
  • Various stretches a day so I'm flexible enough to dance properly when the new improv session starts at uni.

I'm also going to try and get some aerobic exercise in 3 times a week, even if its just the hour long walk down the hill from work to the station. Its not a 'I hate how I look', I still have a pretty enough face, albeit more chubby in my opinion, my hair is nice, and although one of me boobs is increasingly larger than the other, they are nice enough looking now. I like those things about me. I want to tone my stomach and arms, and loose the fat on my back. I've done it before and I can do it again. I just got lazy at uni.

I'm trying to fill the gaps with crafting and making and things. Work is so slow and involves only envelope stuffing, so I've been browsing the web for ideas on my next big knits.

I would like to make a few more things for myself. Alot of my knitting has been presents for other people. So I would like to make my self Sally, in the colours shown, and because I'm a poor student, probably in supersoft superwash baby acrylic yarn.

The second thing I want to make is a variation on this pattern. I saw Debbie Bliss' Lara pattern for Alpaca Silk Yarn which is of a similar style, and thought it would look nice with cables in place of the ribbing. I know it would alter the structure/stability of the design, but I wouldn't mind that. I can't afford to blow a tenner on Debbie's book, and so searched the net for an alternative to Lara. UnGrannySmith was the closest. I won't include the beading, just work the main body in stockinette, and then replace the ribbing with a saxon braid cable. What do you think?

1 comment:

Alexander Segall said...

Loving the Sally.