A 17 year old one trying to be woman, trying to mature
I'm nice naive and beautiful on a good day and you can do no wrong
Inside i'm 4 years old, holding onto a chair, screaming inside because my finger is trapped
and within that is the boring sensibilty of a safe option seeking 37yr old with no ambition
I can do spontenaity...if i'm relaxed enough
but i rarely let go
I'm scared of failing, falling and fire
I'm beautiful pretty, sometimes, like a preraphelite
and sometimes I look like a tramp
I'm a student, a scholar,knoledge seeker, and book lover.
Oh to be forever free of responsibility
I'm scared of my future and desparate for it at the same time
I want to be so many things all at once.
I'm RC's...and God's or God's and RC's..but that's all intrinsicly linked in my soul.
I'm his would be wife, lover and carer
but that has to wait for now
so I settle, for girlfriend.... : - )